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Individuals in the world have a reason to initiate an action, walk, breathe, the single word we as people speak. Overall, I think the best way to do something is to analyze the situation and come to a conclusion.

1. Study for classes.
If I study for classes, I will be able to pass my exams (Foundations of Academic Writing, Astronomy, Psychology, Ways of Knowing, and Computer Concepts for End - Users)

2. Cleanse my body.
Remove all those toxins, lets go honey and water.

3. Finish the story Bianca and I have written, to the extent that I have given in. Or to finish a few chapters.

4. Start my next short story alone, that will not see the light of day.

5. Lose my acne.

6. Tell people what I truly think of them.

7. Pass my exams.

8. Do something that I have never done before, a random spur of the moment action - something I will never be able to take back.

9. Open my eyes to the truth around me.

10. Know when I am wanted.

It all starts in a dark room, when we wake up we find ourselves looking around for something to call our own.
Suddenly the door opens and a white light reaches the eyes, blind us, and hurting us.
We attempt to move closer and closer to this light, but we are shackled down unable to move.
How are we able to pick ourselves up from this disaster when the only the thing keeping us sane are these chains. We have known everything in these walls since day one, the darkness keeps us in an enigma of the outside world. The door is always closed, and the chains never seem to move.
The food comes free to us, we do not starve, and we do not get hungry. The way of living is an easy way.
Eventually we are free from this place, and solving problems for ourselves become a restraint of their own. Before this everything was easily picked for us, as we did not have much options ourselves. But now we have the world to see, and feast upon. Different people from every area of the world lay right before your eyes, do you talk to them? Are they in misery?
Every single person has a life story, which is deep and dark just like the room you were locked into for many ages.

When the sun eventually lowers your eyes become red, with hatred of the world, you are once again locked into the place you have been in your whole life. The fear returns and you are unable to leave. Everywhere you turn you see people, people you have never met in your life. The room has become much bigger and more diverse. Scared and hopeless you run, until your legs cannot carry you any longer. You collapse on the ground attempting to pick up your feet for the first time, but a sudden rush moves through your veins. You are hungry.
All these new feelings running through you, stomach and head aching. Every single muscle in your body hurts. No where to go, no where to live. This town is a horror scene, and you are the single entity inside of it.

Our world is controlled by fate, everything happens for a reason.
Does that mean our thoughts are controlled by something other then ourselves?
Can we rebel against the system, what are we controlled by.
Simply
>what is the free world.

I am not free.

What would happen if everything you knew was forgotten.
Amnesia struck you like a train, the headaches, the sorrow, the emptiness.
Everything from the start of your birth would be a burning building, crashing down. Once stood a mighty structure protecting everything inside, and then in the blink of an eye, that structure has burned down. The remnants of the structure gets destroyed and then a new building is put. Everyone forgets what was inside the last building, what it looked like, every historical moment inside that building has become vanquished.

arrr me matie.

things like this make me happy.

I find myself alone once again.

I hate it.

I am tired of being alone.

Everyone is happy around me, and with someone.

I am alone, single, uno.

One is the loneliest number, one is the loneliest Ben.

Somedays waking up sad is the realization of the world, revolving.

Eyes are tired and weak, how do you understand what to see if your eyes are completely tired, sinking to the back of your head.

What to learn, how to learn.

Ahhh

I find wearing glasses to be ugly. And yet I continue to wear them.

Is my vision that important to me, that is a silly question.

Of course vision is important to me, it allows myself to seek goals, and accomplish them.

The sad part is that I have visions of what I want to be in the future. One day I hope to accomplish them without a struggle.

One rope.

Two ends.

One person.

It feels like tug of war by my self.

F NIGHT.

Last Friday was the most horrible night I have ever experienced.
First I chug a 26er of Vodka, then go out to party. Shot after shot, ugh the fun.
Then Some guy chirps me and calls me a fag, I quote tell him "You are wearing pink earrings, and calling me a fag? Please your point is invalid."
He then goes down the stairs, and when the elevator opens he is there, grabs me and smashes me into the side of the elevator, i start to convulse and I go sit with the RA's un there lobby.
Cops and paramedics are there checking me out, i chirp the cops and they yell at me.
I pass out on the floor. I vomit in a trash can. I go up stairs, lay in bed.
puke, watch the matrix.
no hangover.

So i'll be posting more, starting tomorrow. Or tonight? As it's 3:02AM.
But Yeah, expect a little more (hannah) ;D

^

Up, something I haven't felt.

Feelings, all I understand is sadness. Overwhelming sadness has consumed my body, and made me realize that I need to get out of this, and feel better for my self.

But I know I can't. I'm chained down... With regret and pain.

I just want to be free.

Free in a world where i'm able to be happy.

Something I haven't felt in so long.

e-light

Internet Light.

The story of how video games have changed the mind of man, women, and transvestite.

It started with the invention of pong, a simple game bouncing a ball from two sticks. Object of the game? To score on your opponent.

Through the realization of this technological world we were given some of the greatest gifts life could ask for.

Not to sound high-strung or nerdy, but hands down "Final Fantasy Series" takes the cake for all video games. But that is just a genre of games. My self and others included enjoy RPG games, in which the story lines are long, intense, and an enjoyable play.

While others prefer games that are shooters. Like Team Fortress 2, Halo, etc.

If games that evolve from a certain series seem to be drifting from the story line, they tend to go downhill. I found that Halo picked up in the third story, until the newest version ODST came out, and ruined the series.

Games which usually end up having an amazing storyline is the Tales series, by Namco. Multiplayer action, awesome moves, and amazing game play. It's fun for the whole family!

But if online internet games are as good as games for consoles (xbox, playstation, wii) why do most of them suck? That means maplestory, World of Warcraft, Ragnarok, Guild Wars.

You are stuck with games you have to pay for month after month (Yes you nerds, I am including World of Warcraft here), why would you want to level up your level 24 Bull Warrior, when you could be doing something more productive in your life (little to say that writing this is worthwhile.)

Finally, I feel that games give people a way to express themselves more fluently then they are able to with words. It allows you to find a way to solve problems, waste countless hours, and help you through struggling times. Why would you want to deal with your girlfriend/boyfriend when you could be fighting a magician?!?! Or shooting the head off a sniper, yes head shot~~

In the end, I find that video games are a relief and a huge success. As it gives you time to relax, and well they are just plain fun.

Grace

My friends I decided to check out an abandoned hospital.

Friday: I got shitfaced, old news is old. Kevin decided to bring me to a cool place, it was this abandoned hospital (surprise surprise I lost my keys and student card, no worries I found them.) We go through a window and there is two path ways: Left and Right. Noises from every direction, we decide to leave and find more troops.

We find none, we wait until Saturday.

Saturday: Six of us go, we go the left route first.. We end up exploring until the roof. Its only a parking garage, nothing big nor scary. Down to the bottom and the right route. Down a giant pathway... the left rooms feel the most "unsafe", I would not dare enter them. One had a single chair verging onto the hallway, when we came back the chair was gone. Conclusion? Haunted chair. I found an operation room, and there is one dangling light... But i could feel what I knew happened before, I cannot explain it, but it was scary. We recorded the whole thing.

Tomorrow we are visiting the hospital again.

Apparently the eighth floor (childs ward) is haunted, where people have numerous experiences with the children who have died there. But it is a hospital, shouldn't every room and wall be haunted? Death is everywhere.

Twilight

Sucks.

It is the worst movie ever made, sorry that real (wo)men don't glow in the sunlight - its stupid.

I believe the movie should be burned, as it takes forever for the stupid male to kiss the women..

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Drinking

Apparently I'm always drunk, and I don't understand.

hmm. Just because I drink once and a while on a weekend, doesn't mean I'm always drunk.

L A M E.

My favourite drinks are: smirnoff vodka :) I like to take shots. I think the normal vodka is the best, but second to that is Watermelon; delicious.

This reminds me of a song Rumours (Lindsay Lohan).

Hannah

I don't understand why everyone has the perpetually that you are e-famouzz, but I like YOU because you are just Hannah. And not because you iz a girl on CEF, <3.

My friend is pretty epic.

I wish more people would do this though, not even about animals. But find a cause that is worth while to you. One day next week, i'll find a cause and work my life to live it. Even if that cause is to work harder at university (because clearly that isn't hard to take a picture of... and i'm doing it now).

I give you mad kudos, and support you 100% as the rest of the world should! (expect fur designers... hatred comes along way -- but the animals must love you)

UP 2

I'm tired of people thinking they have the right to keep people awake the entire night.

This one girl wouldn't fuck off, until I finally told her to peace out of the fucking room. (i'm kidding I couldn't do that... but I wanted to cock smack her)

Ugh, it kills to be nice. On the positive side UP was a good movie.

I plead people to watch it, obviously you will enjoy it (only if you like pixar).

But I have to get up in 8 hours for a retarded class which I won't pay attention to anyway.

My hair looks kinda nice. <3

UP

Watching UP with my friends.

I wonder if its good?

We are also ditching a girl right now named Angie. I'm such a horrible person; but really I could care less.

Then class at 8:30am-11:30am, appt with a teacher. 4:20 appt. with my TA for FAW.

My life is set already. fuck.

I just love this song, and I can't find anyone that lives up to the dedication to.

Ross

MajjikelKitty Advanced Cheater Reputation: 65 Joined: 04 Jul 2006 Posts: 84 Posted: Thu Nov 05, 2009 5:42 pm Post subject: its ben, and he's never gonna leave yah. _________________ enjoy reading this blog Back to top

Pretty much the worst song ever.

This post has been removed, due to infringement of Ben's space.

Stop feeling sorry for yourself, the video here is gone.

Not the end of the world.

I have someone named "ticklemesex" as a friend.

I log into CEF and look at GS, and find the best comment ever,

konr Grandmaster Cheater Supreme Reputation: 130 Joined: 22 Dec 2006 Posts: 1133 Location: evocofx.net

Posted: Thu Nov 05, 2009 6:31 pm Post subject: Your non-large friend has nice breasts. Jus' sayin'.

LOL, so i'm going to a seminar about midterms and stress.

I'm only going to be stressed out because I'm not actually doing work but listening to this bitch speak. On the plus side; it might be able to help me + on the negative.. I wont be able to talk to anyone -

so let's see where this takes me.

bye!

Homework all night

Foundations of Academic Writing has currently kicked my ass.
Reading Tar Sands all night and a 30 page tutorial.
Niceeeeeeeeeeeee

TiK ToK - ke$ha
drunk.. more fun doing it then actually watching it.

No big deal, just my idols.

Lucy Liu Sarah Palin

Sarah Palin looks happy though, staring at Lucy Liu that like.

I found this hilarious, and I don't understand why

What doesn't belong in the list:

Meat

Eggs

Wife

Blow job

>Blow job: You can beat your meat, eggs, or wife. But you Can't beat a blow job.

What would we eat if the pilgrims killed cats instead of turkeys on Thanks Giving?

>We would eat pussy for Thanks Giving.

Hero

edit: nevermind

i need to stop drinking, end.

Cutest thing of life

Nath, sent me this :3

Last night I had a dream about you

   In this dream I'm dancing right beside you 

  And it looked like everyone was having fun 

  the kind of feeling I've waited so long   

 Don't stop come a little closer 

  As we jam the rythm gets stronger 

  There's nothing wrong with just a little little fun 

  We were dancing all night long  

  The time is right to put my arms around you  

 You're feeling right 

  You wrap your arms around too 

  But suddenly I feel the shining sun

   Before I knew it this dream was all gone  

  Ooh I don't know what to do 

  About this dream and you 

  I wish this dream comes true  

  Ooh I don't know what to do 

  About this dream and you  

 We'll make this dream come true 

   Why don't you play the game? 

  Why don't you play the game?

This song reminds me of Nath. :3

Said her name was romance, I said I'm impulsive
Swallowed my nerve and ate my dignity
I think I've making progress, she's faking naive
All this false innocence amuses me.
I don't mean to rush, or be obvious
But like a magnet you keep pulling me into fixation,
this mad compulsion
Don't wanna stop. Will you come with me?
Can I take you home?
Open yourself up to me and surrender.
Can I take you home?
We lock out the world and we'll stay there forever.
Say it to me- Three letters
Fall from your mind to your mouth.
Can I take you home?
Am I second guessing? Am I asking too much?
One simple word will set the record straight.
Betrayed by clenched hands
Wear your smile like a mask.
Your tightened fists, they give your heart away.
I don't mean to rush, or be obvious,
but my impatience keeps on dragging me into temptation,
this mad compulsion
And tell me now, will you come with me?
Can I take you home?
Open yourself up to me and surrender.
Can I take you home?
We lock out the world and we'll stay there forever
Say it to me- Three letters.
Fall from your mind to your mouth
Can I take you home?
Said her name was romance, I said I'm impulsive
Betrayed by clenched hands
Wear your smile like a mask.
Can I take you home?
Open yourself up to me and surrender.
Can I take you home?
We'll lock out the world, and we'll stay there forever
Say it to me- Three letters.
Fall from your mind to your mouth
Can I take you home?
Open yourself up to me and surrender.
Can I take you home?
We'll lock out the world, and we'll stay here forever
Can I take you home?
Can I take you home?
Say it to me- Three letters.
Fall from your mind to your mouth
Can I take you home?

I just spent the last hour watching porn with anon.

I realize now I need a life more then anything, and to stop procrastinating. I'm glad I'm not addicted to porn though; otherwise I think my life would decline more then it already is.

picture unrelated to topic.

Will be working on homework all night; goodnight.

Study tips would be nice?

You saved the world from being put into an economy downfall, you are now known as robamass (ross and obama fused into one -- if you could not tell).

One day RObamaSS decided it would be a fun thrill to run for president of the United States. Because of his giant thrills posting on /men/ (7chan) he thought he could get the population of more people, because of his noods; and fun times. When he went outside a chicken was laying on his lawn waiting for someone to pick him up and bring him to the vet (I do not know why this chicken was waiting for that -- but he seemed to be enjoying the wait), RObamaSS was very annoyed that this chicken had soiled his land, but brought the beautiful animal to the vet and saved the day. And that is why he is the President of the United States.

I like how that whole paragraph makes no sense.

Evil exists in the world in every aspect, find a friend and vanquish it.

People in the world hate each other for no reason; i know this is true because I judge people before I meet them.

People in the world hate each other for no reason; i know this is true because I judge people before I meet them.

Dearest Anon.

You have become a huge influence in my life; even though you fuck more then horny dogs.

Funny, smart, witty -- a genuine classic.

Reality TV knows no limits.

The personal theft has become a vendetta which needs to stop; become more mature over the situation is something I have done. Mainly because I was becoming stupid saying those petty things, but our relationship has grown.

i l o v e y o u