things like this make me happy.
I am tired of being alone.
Everyone is happy around me, and with someone.
I am alone, single, uno.
One is the loneliest number, one is the loneliest Ben.
Somedays waking up sad is the realization of the world, revolving.
Eyes are tired and weak, how do you understand what to see if your eyes are completely tired, sinking to the back of your head.
What to learn, how to learn.
Ahhh
I find wearing glasses to be ugly. And yet I continue to wear them.Is my vision that important to me, that is a silly question.
Of course vision is important to me, it allows myself to seek goals, and accomplish them.
The sad part is that I have visions of what I want to be in the future. One day I hope to accomplish them without a struggle.
One rope.
Two ends.
One person.
It feels like tug of war by my self.
F NIGHT.
Last Friday was the most horrible night I have ever experienced.
First I chug a 26er of Vodka, then go out to party. Shot after shot, ugh the fun.
Then Some guy chirps me and calls me a fag, I quote tell him "You are wearing pink earrings, and calling me a fag? Please your point is invalid."
He then goes down the stairs, and when the elevator opens he is there, grabs me and smashes me into the side of the elevator, i start to convulse and I go sit with the RA's un there lobby.
Cops and paramedics are there checking me out, i chirp the cops and they yell at me.
I pass out on the floor. I vomit in a trash can. I go up stairs, lay in bed.
puke, watch the matrix.
no hangover.
First I chug a 26er of Vodka, then go out to party. Shot after shot, ugh the fun.
Then Some guy chirps me and calls me a fag, I quote tell him "You are wearing pink earrings, and calling me a fag? Please your point is invalid."
He then goes down the stairs, and when the elevator opens he is there, grabs me and smashes me into the side of the elevator, i start to convulse and I go sit with the RA's un there lobby.
Cops and paramedics are there checking me out, i chirp the cops and they yell at me.
I pass out on the floor. I vomit in a trash can. I go up stairs, lay in bed.
puke, watch the matrix.
no hangover.
So i'll be posting more, starting tomorrow. Or tonight? As it's 3:02AM.
But Yeah, expect a little more (hannah) ;D
But Yeah, expect a little more (hannah) ;D
^
Up, something I haven't felt.
Feelings, all I understand is sadness. Overwhelming sadness has consumed my body, and made me realize that I need to get out of this, and feel better for my self.
But I know I can't. I'm chained down... With regret and pain.
I just want to be free.
Free in a world where i'm able to be happy.
Something I haven't felt in so long.
e-light
Internet Light.
The story of how video games have changed the mind of man, women, and transvestite.
It started with the invention of pong, a simple game bouncing a ball from two sticks. Object of the game? To score on your opponent.
Through the realization of this technological world we were given some of the greatest gifts life could ask for.
Not to sound high-strung or nerdy, but hands down "Final Fantasy Series" takes the cake for all video games. But that is just a genre of games. My self and others included enjoy RPG games, in which the story lines are long, intense, and an enjoyable play.
While others prefer games that are shooters. Like Team Fortress 2, Halo, etc.
If games that evolve from a certain series seem to be drifting from the story line, they tend to go downhill. I found that Halo picked up in the third story, until the newest version ODST came out, and ruined the series.
Games which usually end up having an amazing storyline is the Tales series, by Namco. Multiplayer action, awesome moves, and amazing game play. It's fun for the whole family!
But if online internet games are as good as games for consoles (xbox, playstation, wii) why do most of them suck? That means maplestory, World of Warcraft, Ragnarok, Guild Wars.
You are stuck with games you have to pay for month after month (Yes you nerds, I am including World of Warcraft here), why would you want to level up your level 24 Bull Warrior, when you could be doing something more productive in your life (little to say that writing this is worthwhile.)
Finally, I feel that games give people a way to express themselves more fluently then they are able to with words. It allows you to find a way to solve problems, waste countless hours, and help you through struggling times. Why would you want to deal with your girlfriend/boyfriend when you could be fighting a magician?!?! Or shooting the head off a sniper, yes head shot~~
In the end, I find that video games are a relief and a huge success. As it gives you time to relax, and well they are just plain fun.
Grace
My friends I decided to check out an abandoned hospital.
Friday: I got shitfaced, old news is old. Kevin decided to bring me to a cool place, it was this abandoned hospital (surprise surprise I lost my keys and student card, no worries I found them.) We go through a window and there is two path ways: Left and Right. Noises from every direction, we decide to leave and find more troops.
We find none, we wait until Saturday.
Saturday: Six of us go, we go the left route first.. We end up exploring until the roof. Its only a parking garage, nothing big nor scary. Down to the bottom and the right route. Down a giant pathway... the left rooms feel the most "unsafe", I would not dare enter them. One had a single chair verging onto the hallway, when we came back the chair was gone. Conclusion? Haunted chair. I found an operation room, and there is one dangling light... But i could feel what I knew happened before, I cannot explain it, but it was scary. We recorded the whole thing.
Tomorrow we are visiting the hospital again.
Apparently the eighth floor (childs ward) is haunted, where people have numerous experiences with the children who have died there. But it is a hospital, shouldn't every room and wall be haunted? Death is everywhere.
Twilight
Sucks.
It is the worst movie ever made, sorry that real (wo)men don't glow in the sunlight - its stupid.
I believe the movie should be burned, as it takes forever for the stupid male to kiss the women..
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are stu
Drinking
Apparently I'm always drunk, and I don't understand.
hmm. Just because I drink once and a while on a weekend, doesn't mean I'm always drunk.
L A M E.
My favourite drinks are: smirnoff vodka :) I like to take shots. I think the normal vodka is the best, but second to that is Watermelon; delicious.
This reminds me of a song Rumours (Lindsay Lohan).
Hannah
I don't understand why everyone has the perpetually that you are e-famouzz, but I like YOU because you are just Hannah. And not because you iz a girl on CEF, <3.
My friend is pretty epic.
I wish more people would do this though, not even about animals. But find a cause that is worth while to you. One day next week, i'll find a cause and work my life to live it. Even if that cause is to work harder at university (because clearly that isn't hard to take a picture of... and i'm doing it now).
I give you mad kudos, and support you 100% as the rest of the world should! (expect fur designers... hatred comes along way -- but the animals must love you)
UP 2
I'm tired of people thinking they have the right to keep people awake the entire night. 
This one girl wouldn't fuck off, until I finally told her to peace out of the fucking room. (i'm kidding I couldn't do that... but I wanted to cock smack her)
Ugh, it kills to be nice. On the positive side UP was a good movie.
I plead people to watch it, obviously you will enjoy it (only if you like pixar).
But I have to get up in 8 hours for a retarded class which I won't pay attention to anyway.
My hair looks kinda nice. <3
UP
Watching UP with my friends.
I wonder if its good?
We are also ditching a girl right now named Angie. I'm such a horrible person; but really I could care less.
Then class at 8:30am-11:30am, appt with a teacher. 4:20 appt. with my TA for FAW.
My life is set already. fuck.
Ross
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Pretty much the worst song ever.
This post has been removed, due to infringement of Ben's space.
Stop feeling sorry for yourself, the video here is gone.
Not the end of the world.
I log into CEF and look at GS, and find the best comment ever,
| konr Grandmaster Cheater Supreme     Joined: 22 Dec 2006 Posts: 1133 Location: evocofx.net |
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LOL, so i'm going to a seminar about midterms and stress.
I'm only going to be stressed out because I'm not actually doing work but listening to this bitch speak. On the plus side; it might be able to help me + on the negative.. I wont be able to talk to anyone -
so let's see where this takes me.
bye!
Homework all night
Foundations of Academic Writing has currently kicked my ass.
Reading Tar Sands all night and a 30 page tutorial.
Niceeeeeeeeeeeee
Reading Tar Sands all night and a 30 page tutorial.
Niceeeeeeeeeeeee
I found this hilarious, and I don't understand why
What doesn't belong in the list:
Meat
Eggs
Wife
Blow job
>Blow job: You can beat your meat, eggs, or wife. But you Can't beat a blow job.
What would we eat if the pilgrims killed cats instead of turkeys on Thanks Giving?
>We would eat pussy for Thanks Giving.
Cutest thing of life
Nath, sent me this :3
Last night I had a dream about you
In this dream I'm dancing right beside you
And it looked like everyone was having fun
the kind of feeling I've waited so long
Don't stop come a little closer
As we jam the rythm gets stronger
There's nothing wrong with just a little little fun
We were dancing all night long
The time is right to put my arms around you
You're feeling right
You wrap your arms around too
But suddenly I feel the shining sun
Before I knew it this dream was all gone
Ooh I don't know what to do
About this dream and you
I wish this dream comes true
Ooh I don't know what to do
About this dream and you
We'll make this dream come true
Why don't you play the game?
Why don't you play the game?
This song reminds me of Nath. :3
Swallowed my nerve and ate my dignity
I think I've making progress, she's faking naive
All this false innocence amuses me.
I don't mean to rush, or be obvious
But like a magnet you keep pulling me into fixation,
this mad compulsion
Don't wanna stop. Will you come with me?
Can I take you home?
Open yourself up to me and surrender.
Can I take you home?
We lock out the world and we'll stay there forever.
Say it to me- Three letters
Fall from your mind to your mouth.
Can I take you home?
Am I second guessing? Am I asking too much?
One simple word will set the record straight.
Betrayed by clenched hands
Wear your smile like a mask.
Your tightened fists, they give your heart away.
I don't mean to rush, or be obvious,
but my impatience keeps on dragging me into temptation,
this mad compulsion
And tell me now, will you come with me?
Can I take you home?
Open yourself up to me and surrender.
Can I take you home?
We lock out the world and we'll stay there forever
Say it to me- Three letters.
Fall from your mind to your mouth
Can I take you home?
Said her name was romance, I said I'm impulsive
Betrayed by clenched hands
Wear your smile like a mask.
Can I take you home?
Open yourself up to me and surrender.
Can I take you home?
We'll lock out the world, and we'll stay there forever
Say it to me- Three letters.
Fall from your mind to your mouth
Can I take you home?
Open yourself up to me and surrender.
Can I take you home?
We'll lock out the world, and we'll stay here forever
Can I take you home?
Can I take you home?
Say it to me- Three letters.
Fall from your mind to your mouth
Can I take you home?
I just spent the last hour watching porn with anon.
I realize now I need a life more then anything, and to stop procrastinating. I'm glad I'm not addicted to porn though; otherwise I think my life would decline more then it already is.
picture unrelated to topic.
One day RObamaSS decided it would be a fun thrill to run for president of the United States. Because of his giant thrills posting on /men/ (7chan) he thought he could get the population of more people, because of his noods; and fun times. When he went outside a chicken was laying on his lawn waiting for someone to pick him up and bring him to the vet (I do not know why this chicken was waiting for that -- but he seemed to be enjoying the wait), RObamaSS was very annoyed that this chicken had soiled his land, but brought the beautiful animal to the vet and saved the day. And that is why he is the President of the United States.
I like how that whole paragraph makes no sense.
People in the world hate each other for no reason; i know this is true because I judge people before I meet them.
People in the world hate each other for no reason; i know this is true because I judge people before I meet them.
Dearest Anon.
You have become a huge influence in my life; even though you fuck more then horny dogs.
Funny, smart, witty -- a genuine classic.
Reality TV knows no limits.
The personal theft has become a vendetta which needs to stop; become more mature over the situation is something I have done. Mainly because I was becoming stupid saying those petty things, but our relationship has grown.
i l o v e y o u